what am i to you?
a stupid girl or a girl you wish to love or even a girl you wish to cheat on?
how pathetic am i? or no, should i ever say, how dumb my brain were to be?
how i wish i would ever vanish or even you never appear to me at all.
why bother making me like you when you know that you never be serious?
why bother huh?
STUPID is the only word i could describe myself.
a relationship that never... never look like one at all.
happy, naiive little brain joy over a pathetic, dumbness or even senseless reality.
a girl lives in a world with dark clouds and never to be bright?
why should i like you or crush on you.
i could have continue to love him. the one and only him...
for what sake should i force myself to be dirty?
because i dun love myself or what shit you ever think?
am i that brainless?
do i really look like that in your thoughts?
or you want to be like that. i dun want to be force into a two timing relationship.
i could have ask my ex for patch.
i could do more drastic changes if you want me to. but i dun want!!
a fact that i like you. a fact that i love him.
if you want to replace him. you are far more than far. wider than a ocean i could say now.
but what more can i do now?
what should i do. you are making myself jump into a pool of tears, emotic and attitude changes . when i am making a change in myself.

stupid! why should i do such stupid thing.
what am i suppose to be in now?
in the rubbish dump or garage sale.
HELLLLLOOOOOO!!!!!!! f** up sial. with all the shits i have.
when can i ever be awake in the brandnew days.
AAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH...
i seriously need a shoulder...
baby jess ar, i know you know what am i talking about.
please make a surprise out of surprise, happening out of happening for me ...