the previous post is abt a guy for everybody information !

why does everybody need to misunderstand again and again.
well, arent i suppose to clear misunderstanding with you?
why do you have to say so sarcastic remarks to me?
after our 6 months tgt.
is that nothing in ur eyes.?
all the fun, the up and down.
seriously, since when you lose ur trust to me.?
since when we have to scold each other till so badly?
SINCE WHEN ?
you use to say and ask me not to believe in bazi.
you told me you want to make a miracle thing out of this.
but... things change before you started...
the photos we use to take ? the laughter we use to have?
thats not an illusion to me at all.
if you need a time to settle everything with me.
i give you choose a date, day and time.
just the both of us. we 2 can talk it out to each other.
our pro and cons. is it okay ?
please dont misunderstand each other further....

TO MY ONCE CLOSE SISTER
if you still regards me, i can take the once away..

HEY ,
i really peifu ppl who wants to act in front of me to be nice and backstabbing behind my back.
i take my hats off you man.
come on, you think is cool being barbaric, acting one behind another.
you are one big fool alright !
snob face. is not i am the only one who's saying you.
there is a lot ppl feel that you change !
and you really did.
WANG EN FU YI.
forget those who is a benefactor to you only causes uncrude karma to urself.
i can only say this.
STOP ACTING IMMATURE =.=

(you-know-who)



i dont know what the hack is going on la.
you are behaving strangely this few days.
seriously, as if we are really going to break..
is my fault again?
or have i not done better enough?
what i can say is i love you.

29MARCH. 2.38AM


-NOTIHING !
absoulutely sure nothing gonna make myself feel better.
DAMN the 2 BITCHES. DOG FACE !
Especially the 1st one.
if it wasnt she who made you lose ur 1st time, you wouldnt be so curve thinking all the time.
if it wasnt her, you wounldnt have start acting this way.
and things wont be a mess...
you will never be so H**** !
she ! SHE made it this way .
SHE MADE IT UR DAILY LIFE LAST TIME.
things wont turn out this way.
AWW !!! i dont know who to talk to.who to share this heart breaking news.
who would still be awake, at this middle night.
i can only act stupid blogging in my phone than to the comp.
I NEED A SHOULDER BADLY.
DAMN BADLY. right now..
this very very moment.
i need and penknife or a sharp glass.
thats the only way i can ease my heart pain feeling...
ONCE AGAIN... MY PAST CHARACTER REBORNS...


4.30AM

-cry till now and my eyes and damn big and swollen.
i felt numbness over my body. cold and stingy feeling.
eyes swollen like fishball. let me fall sick alright !
let me just lie in bed and stare in the ceiling space.
now, lets be practical, maybe a stupid idea.
if only i could be more fertile.
at least i have someone to talk to.
in future ....
lust, lies and love ?
the 3 Ls~ runs in my mind now and than.
the sentence you mention. open my wound once more.
this times you digs deeper into my wound
YES ! i made them leave.
YES ! i am a attitude @sshole.
YES ! i dont know my limits.
and YES ! I LOVE YOU IN THE WRONG WAY.
But, at the same time,
YES ! i am being treated unfairly.
YES ! i feel hurt now.
YES ! i am no longer getting privileges like what they had.
YES ! i cried terribly bad.
YES ! history returns.
good guy and bad girl .
HURT. just hurt.


9.28AM

i have to suffer alone.
wake up 5 times.
can you believe ?
nightmare 5 times.
i dreamt that you slap me, kick me.
and even threaten to kill the unborn kid.
WORSE nightmare. i saw you.. doing uncensor stuff in front of me.
with the 2 bitch.
AWWWWWWWWWWWWW !!!!!!!!!!!!!
i'm going crazy. i want to kill myself.
seriously, i need a hug. a shoulder !
RIGHT NOW !! who can it be ?
*sigh* i assume no one....

27.MARCH

- Went to DAR house to collect barangbarang.
than about to leave, his bro sick till very badly.
i took a cloth put on his forhead, made a cup of condensed milk and feed him eat medicine.
than cycle to SK, meet girlfey and lihui.
after that wait for SK-ians and gather, than proceed to ECP.
cycle there, we took turns to fetch lihui, faster reach there le.
jiu heard something from lihui, felt angry but don't care.
bring laptop out and watch show with lihui cuz girlfey go find her mom.
after that jiu go peng-gang things to eat.
weixin got buy 4 things. satay, sotong, stingray and hotdog.
than play beach volleyball with kenny, jun, DA sebas and my 2 girls.
suddenly jiu quarrel with DAR, than gf pull me go play water happy but i end up...
than went up and back to BBQ pit sing bdae song for heng, xin and jess.
after that, we go back play water. we keep throwing ppl into the water.


A few more mins to 28.MARCH
-we intend to throw steffi than we went aside to plan.
dont know why change to eric but went back to steffi again.
dai-sou and gf help me carry steffi and throw in water.
than DAR sudden want throw me , but end up gf drag me down to water.
than dai-sou jiu push gf into the water also.
one stone kill two bird. WIN LIAO. LOL
after that we went to the toilet for washing up.
And guess what, we bathe in the public.
PUBLIC!? can you imagine the open air?no cover de lor.
than we go changing room change after our bath.
go back and BBQ food again. *hungry*
than gf go home
Jiu left me, DAR, steffi, jun, guorong, ben, kenny, eric, jess, sensen, da.sebas, dai-sou, weile, weian and kelvin.
we slack there till 5plus 6 than cycle to bedok inter mac.
after reaching, me and DAR go home..
slept at DAR house till noon than ask papa fetch me.
than on the way home, papa talk to me alot of things.
hear le, start to cry to sleep when i reach home.
HOME-D~

small sebas blocking bdae girl and boy .

SKians photo taking 2

skians photo taking 3

today at SK celebrate JESS AND WEIXIN birthday .

LOL . fun and funny . well , big sebas was like making a fool of himself , lame but funny .

yeahyeah was fun . than go home jiu tio kan . thats when my miserable story came .

father nag , scared any time he will get retrench , my mom also .

than talk abt dar and me . say we got plan until marriage .

what if ..... did we plan our future ?

i myself has no confidence . heart ache now . damn aching . even it pass 2 hrs . it is still acting .

hais . i am really heart breaking now .

i hate ppl COMPARING me .
Dont you dare to compare me when you urself is no where better .
FCUK you okay .
you force my profanities out , you force my unglamour !
i damn hate you to core okay .
THE 2ND woman made me put you in the infamous list of mine .
so what i dont my guy talk to you ?
so ?! i let him talk to most girls , but you are EXCEPTION .!
TOO BAD , SLUT .




ANYWAY ,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JESSLYN CHIA !!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO WEIXIN !!

guess the bazi is out again .
damn the fcuking bazi .
ruin my life . again again again .
why the hell ?! two diff thing .
one frm guan yin temple . one frm bazi .
TWO diff story . you are a human , you look positive sides .
but i am not just human , but woman cum human .
all woman think negative . ALLLLLL .
HAPPY ONE MONTH PLUS TO MY DEAREST SHAN-DARDAR !
HAPPY THREE MONTH PLUS TO KITTY-GIRLGIRL !
HAPPY EXACT THREE MONRHS TO JAC-SUNZI !