is a happy and sad feeling.
nightmare and dreamy feeeling.
how can i possible bring myself out?
having sweet and bitter moments.
why is it so suffocated. okay than.
end my sad story. dont want go into too much.

i wish to last this relationship with MR lee jian hao AKA sikeweishan
i wanna last. after the nightmare last night.
I... i really want to last. cause, his no one bad.
only wish everything good for me.
run after me when i ran off.
kiss me good night. kiss me good bye.
all listed that WHAT a girls want..
LAST.. long till forever...
i am very afraid my mom de bazi count out a diff thing...
i am very worried and scared...

in my life i have finally understand what is expel.
16years and counting, now i understand.
something miserable, parents condemning against you.
is not surprise that parent will condemn you right?
but unexpectedly, pulling and dragging to your past.
will you be suffocated if you were me?
it isn't that easy for you to understand the pain cause it is not obvious.
is indirectly shooting you. will you be tired of all the nagging.?
when you tried to help but end up, you were the villain.
a child do childish matters, people can understand..
but if you were the parent will you still act childish.?
that is really really ridiculous, to be childish rights?
a father say, if i work, i support myself.
if i study, he support me.
but end up, i got to support myself. my uniforms. my prepaid.
what is this.? what in the world is this. am i asking to much.?
cried really everyday. when can i stop crying?
i really want to rest. really damn tired. dont feel like living anymore.
i dont feel good at all. i feel tired. anytime i could really close my eyes and feel nothing.
lols. really wierd about all this happening. too sudden till i cant feel anything real.
should i give in some scolding for me? myself and i ?
or should i just cry all the way.?
isnt it useless for me to do that.. mostly it will be useless and pointless...