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dhe day my baby KELVIN CHENG JUI LOONG is mine !
i love you deep and much !
MWARKS x3

FG blog is up andd posted ! http://itsallabout-fg.onsugar.com
yeahh , FG ! go see , any amendments let me know ;D

thAnks everyone. i see so much shit in you all. all the blinded fake smiles.
heart hurts the whole day ytd . did have much to pour it out. no one to pour exactly.
yes i have no more frens. no, is close frens. no more close frens. fake frens are everywhere i see.
i just hate the real me in me. i guess, i am shutting down soon.

i am back blogging le ppl.
its really been damn long since i last blogging .
i got damn lot of things to clarify here .
i miss a lot of people .
down with high fever of 39.5 to 40 for 5 days .
hospitalize for 10days at home with 5-8 medicine.
SUFFER!! some are kind send sweet messages to me asking me to recover well.
pei rong still msg me say no one help her eat orange . cute nah.
james korkor buy me a pigpig to make smile sweet sweet . haha .
jacky didi say i recover le ask me go play maximum tune with him. LOL
but somehow there are people with stinks mouth .
thinking i just say to gain sympathy or making things small to big .

just wondering last time i have losing alot of frens.
anyone whom i am disappointed with , this person will keep telling me : ppl do change, treat it as you dont have this fren .
well, easy to be said than to be done.
especially gail, my precious girl. though how bad she change i will still stnd by her.
telling myself thats what she change me into . bad to good . so here am i to do the same.
if i were to heed that fren advice probably i would be like HIM.
NO MUTUAL FRENS at all.
i am just happy to have my clicks that support me that well.
LOVE PEIRONG , GIIM , JAMES KORKOR , ANDY BOYBOY and MICHELLE MUMMY ;D

HELLO PEEPOS !!!!!!!!!
i am back with my blogging already .
yeah !
toooo many things happen uh .
feel pain in the heart . early morning all of the thing come make me bad mood.
i am so so dishearten sia.
i just want to be myself in times , isnt that easy ?
but alot people make my life difficult .
i just people to talk and make me laugh everytime .
so i can be happy go lucky .
but everyone making my life diifficult .
WHY ??????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i am so suffocated .
i am... everyone is on purpose arent they ?
I AM SO DISAPPOINTED WITH YOU . BENNY !!!! and one more i dont feel like naming at all.
fine ! even my hubby dar.
misunderstand my msg ! why ?
just a small msg he can get so ..
aww man, bad day ! i nearly late . and no one understand me .
I HATE PROMISE BREAKERS !!! i hate MYSELF OKAY ?!
SHARRON KOH SUCKS !!!

the previous post is abt a guy for everybody information !

why does everybody need to misunderstand again and again.
well, arent i suppose to clear misunderstanding with you?
why do you have to say so sarcastic remarks to me?
after our 6 months tgt.
is that nothing in ur eyes.?
all the fun, the up and down.
seriously, since when you lose ur trust to me.?
since when we have to scold each other till so badly?
SINCE WHEN ?
you use to say and ask me not to believe in bazi.
you told me you want to make a miracle thing out of this.
but... things change before you started...
the photos we use to take ? the laughter we use to have?
thats not an illusion to me at all.
if you need a time to settle everything with me.
i give you choose a date, day and time.
just the both of us. we 2 can talk it out to each other.
our pro and cons. is it okay ?
please dont misunderstand each other further....

TO MY ONCE CLOSE SISTER
if you still regards me, i can take the once away..

HEY ,
i really peifu ppl who wants to act in front of me to be nice and backstabbing behind my back.
i take my hats off you man.
come on, you think is cool being barbaric, acting one behind another.
you are one big fool alright !
snob face. is not i am the only one who's saying you.
there is a lot ppl feel that you change !
and you really did.
WANG EN FU YI.
forget those who is a benefactor to you only causes uncrude karma to urself.
i can only say this.
STOP ACTING IMMATURE =.=

(you-know-who)



i dont know what the hack is going on la.
you are behaving strangely this few days.
seriously, as if we are really going to break..
is my fault again?
or have i not done better enough?
what i can say is i love you.

29MARCH. 2.38AM


-NOTIHING !
absoulutely sure nothing gonna make myself feel better.
DAMN the 2 BITCHES. DOG FACE !
Especially the 1st one.
if it wasnt she who made you lose ur 1st time, you wouldnt be so curve thinking all the time.
if it wasnt her, you wounldnt have start acting this way.
and things wont be a mess...
you will never be so H**** !
she ! SHE made it this way .
SHE MADE IT UR DAILY LIFE LAST TIME.
things wont turn out this way.
AWW !!! i dont know who to talk to.who to share this heart breaking news.
who would still be awake, at this middle night.
i can only act stupid blogging in my phone than to the comp.
I NEED A SHOULDER BADLY.
DAMN BADLY. right now..
this very very moment.
i need and penknife or a sharp glass.
thats the only way i can ease my heart pain feeling...
ONCE AGAIN... MY PAST CHARACTER REBORNS...


4.30AM

-cry till now and my eyes and damn big and swollen.
i felt numbness over my body. cold and stingy feeling.
eyes swollen like fishball. let me fall sick alright !
let me just lie in bed and stare in the ceiling space.
now, lets be practical, maybe a stupid idea.
if only i could be more fertile.
at least i have someone to talk to.
in future ....
lust, lies and love ?
the 3 Ls~ runs in my mind now and than.
the sentence you mention. open my wound once more.
this times you digs deeper into my wound
YES ! i made them leave.
YES ! i am a attitude @sshole.
YES ! i dont know my limits.
and YES ! I LOVE YOU IN THE WRONG WAY.
But, at the same time,
YES ! i am being treated unfairly.
YES ! i feel hurt now.
YES ! i am no longer getting privileges like what they had.
YES ! i cried terribly bad.
YES ! history returns.
good guy and bad girl .
HURT. just hurt.


9.28AM

i have to suffer alone.
wake up 5 times.
can you believe ?
nightmare 5 times.
i dreamt that you slap me, kick me.
and even threaten to kill the unborn kid.
WORSE nightmare. i saw you.. doing uncensor stuff in front of me.
with the 2 bitch.
AWWWWWWWWWWWWW !!!!!!!!!!!!!
i'm going crazy. i want to kill myself.
seriously, i need a hug. a shoulder !
RIGHT NOW !! who can it be ?
*sigh* i assume no one....